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I've been on vacation for a month and I haven't updated here. Shame on me. Well, there hasn't been much to talk about,  anyway. A lot of my time goes to gaming (oh good heavens, how I missed  it) and reading a few books (I need a break from reading,  for 10 months I  did nothing but read and write essays). Highlight of last semester: I  won an award. There was a a short story competition organized by my faculty and I though "Fuck it, it's not like I'm gonna lose everything by trying"...and turns out I won 3rd place and  possible publication on my uni's magazine. I  swear I didn't see that  one coming. The ever so wonderful :iconbanshee69:,another one of my friends, and my sisters went to the award ceremony. Other than that, nothing exciting has happened. I beat God of War I & II (....yeah, what a great accomplishment) and...that's about it...nothing more. Other than trying to play Assassin's Creed on my PC and discovering that it doesn't even reach the minimum requirements. I've tried writing a few things, but other than a fanfiction that I'm keeping to myself...there has been nothing. I don't want to force myself to write something just for the  heck of it.

I reaaaally want a PS4....why, Naughty Dog, why do  you decide to announce Uncharted 4 right now?!

*goes to corner*
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I've been on vacation for a month and I haven't updated here. Shame on me. Well, there hasn't been much to talk about,  anyway. A lot of my time goes to gaming (oh good heavens, how I missed  it) and reading a few books (I need a break from reading,  for 10 months I  did nothing but read and write essays). Highlight of last semester: I  won an award. There was a a short story competition organized by my faculty and I though "Fuck it, it's not like I'm gonna lose everything by trying"...and turns out I won 3rd place and  possible publication on my uni's magazine. I  swear I didn't see that  one coming. The ever so wonderful :iconbanshee69:,another one of my friends, and my sisters went to the award ceremony. Other than that, nothing exciting has happened. I beat God of War I & II (....yeah, what a great accomplishment) and...that's about it...nothing more. Other than trying to play Assassin's Creed on my PC and discovering that it doesn't even reach the minimum requirements. I've tried writing a few things, but other than a fanfiction that I'm keeping to myself...there has been nothing. I don't want to force myself to write something just for the  heck of it.

I reaaaally want a PS4....why, Naughty Dog, why do  you decide to announce Uncharted 4 right now?!

*goes to corner*
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2:29 am...and still writing a damn  essay! For Heaven's  sake, I swear I'm not making any sense...at  all. 



*yeah,  months without writing a journal and  this is the best I can do...*  
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Hello :) yes, it's a journal. I feel like writing, but no inspiring thoughts have struck me yet, so why not writing a journal/rant while waiting for inspiration to come and the caffeine to kick in?


My life is not very interesting. Thinking about this past year, only bitter memories from my 4th semester at Uni come to my head. By the way, I'm on my way to my 5th semester. All courses clear, good grades, thanks to my unrational fear of losing. But somehow, I'm feeling disenchanted with the career I chose. Yes, it's literature, I still think I made the right choice. But most of the courses in the syllabus are...boring. Not a single course of creative writing, and the one class I was truly looking forward was a failure (Theory of Poetry & Essays). I shouldn't be complaining;  I'm lucky to have university education. What I'm complaining about is the quality of the education being given. Art History and Renaissance literature have been by far the only courses in which I learned something of value, whereas the rest of the courses...let's say Wikipedia taught me better. Hopefully the next courses will be better. If not, I'm already searching for scholarships.


I've disappointed myself as well. When I was fifteen, there wasn't a day I didn't write something, no matter how cheesy  it was. Fingers smudged with ink and a torn notebook were part of my daily basis. Now, being 20 years old, I've fallen into what I dreaded years ago: Monotony.

I've become quite a comformist; there are few things that amuse me nowadays. The energy I used to have to write dune length paragraphs out of a simple object or situation is ebbing away. I still carry a notebook and pen wherever I go...but each time I try to write something, thoughts like "It's worthless", "You don't know how to write", "Somebody will read this and will realize what a petty you are" clutter my mind. Yes, I'm my worst enemy, with a terrible insecure personality. I'm not sure if being aware of this means that there's still some chance to get away from that black-hole called "routine". Maybe it's just a block and I'm overreacting (which wouldn't be a surprise) :shrug:


On another completely off target topic....I finished watching "Samurai Champloo" a few days ago. The first time I watched it was seven years ago. I only saw a few episodes, but the design was ingrained in my head. Sadly, the network removed it and I forgot about it. I still remember those nights, though. I would to the living room as quietly as possible, and stay up late watching different anime series, Champloo among them. Well, a few days ago I remembered I never watched the whole series, thus the marathon began! :iconiloveitplz: I love it , i love it , i love it! The anachronisms, the fights, the swords, everything,especially Mugen! And the music!  I'm still high on the last episode. And as any fan...I would like to know what happened after the end! But maybe it's better that way...so I can come up with my own ideas of what happened :P

:iconmugenplz: I  really love his character...and the fact that Steve Blum is his voice actor in the english dub just adds more charm!


Well...that's my rant. Hopefully having written all of this has cleared my head.
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A journal?

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Yeah, a journal. Why? 'Cause I can. And it's premiumship day. Guess this journal skin will look good....and anyways, it'll be months until I write another journal with more depth than this one. I'm just mentally drained.......just finished collecting 50 poems for a personal antohology and now I gotta go and write an essay about why I chose them. Then I got to start writing POEMS (a poem for each well-known poetry style)  of my own for the same class. Dear....heavens know I'm no poet and lack the soul suited for the genre.  Yes, I'm complaining, because I need to vent it out or I'll end up pulling  my hair and running out to the street and yell like a banshee (yeah, I'm reading Harry Potter again).  Alright, I better get my head into work.


Until next journal!

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